Sweet

  Sweet

  Skye Warren

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  Chapter One

  I unwrapped the brace from my knee, wincing at how bad it looked underneath. About as bad as it felt. A puffy mass of pain that I would pretend didn’t hurt so my brothers wouldn’t worry.

  Very soon I wouldn’t need to hide. I wouldn’t need to hurt.

  My end goal was simple, modest even. A ballet teacher with a small studio. An apartment nearby to put up my feet after work. And if it were lonelier that way…well, that was the price of exit.

  Lindsey whistled as she slumped onto the locker-room bench beside me. “I really want to complain about my ankles right now, but after seeing your knees, I think I’ll just count my blessings.”

  “Glad to be of service. Now, do you have good news for me?”

  Lindsey was in the corps de ballet, a position for newer dancers within the company. Not as stressful as a principal, perhaps, but the pay was almost half, so many of them had side jobs to complement the paltry salaries.

  She was a part-time real estate agent, and I’d enlisted her help in finding the right spot for my studio. So far the available spaces had been too large, too far outside Chicago proper, too expensive.

  “You’re going to love this one, promise. Not only is the rent midrange, but it used to be a yoga studio, so there’s already a wooden floor and windows all around. And—wait for it—a living space upstairs.”

  “Get out.” I had also asked her to keep an eye out for apartments nearby, but I hadn’t dared imagine it would happen in one fell swoop.

  Her smile was smug. “I swear, if you don’t take this place, I will, and I’m not even opening a ballet school.”

  “What’s the catch?”

  “It’s hidden behind a courtyard. There’s virtually no storefront, but you can get signage on the building right by the street.”

  Not a deal breaker at all. In fact, it would be better not to have pedestrians peering in the windows during ballet classes. “It still seems too good to be true.”

  She shrugged. “The upstairs needs work. It was some sort of weird lounge, which I think is code for people smoking pot all day.”

  “Lindsey, there are going to be kids coming to the school.”

  “I didn’t say you had to smoke pot. It has a kitchen and a bathroom. With a little renovation, it’s your new apartment.”

  “Where exactly is this place located?”

  “Lincoln Park, which is totally safe. I mean, you wanted to stick to the city, so we’re not talking white picket fences or anything. But it’s a cool area with families packed like sardines in condos.”

  “With no outlets for their kids’ energy,” I finished.

  “I knew you’d see the light. So I’ll set up a viewing?”

  “As fast as you can. And tell them they have an eager renter ready to sign, so don’t go showing it around.”

  “Are you? Ready to sign, I mean.”

  “Absolutely.”

  “And your brother?”

  “He’ll deal with it,” I said firmly. “I’m sure he can handle the news that his sister is a grown-up doing grown-up things. He’s a big boy.”

  Lindsey flushed with a dreamy expression. “Don’t I know it. The man can fill out a suit, that’s for sure.”

  She’d had a crush on Philip since he’d come to one of our dress rehearsals the year before. At least he hadn’t taken her up on her not so subtle hints. He knew better than to cause problems for me in the dance company. Because where he was involved, trouble inevitably followed.

  “Believe me,” I said, “you’re better off.”

  She rolled her eyes. “I don’t want to marry him. I just want to fuck him.”

  “Nice,” I said drily.

  “I’m sorry we can’t all be Miss Goody Two-Shoes.”

  The sharp words caught me off guard, and I flinched.

  She sighed. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean it in a bad way. You’re the innocent one. It’s cute.”

  “No worries.” I offered her a quick smile before heading for the door. “I’m heading out. Text me when you have a time for the viewing.”

  I got in my car, shaking my head. If only she knew. Sure, it had been a while for me, but I was far from pure. My past would remain with me wherever I went, however long I avoided the subject.

  No, my concern for her hadn’t been borne of prudishness. My brother wasn’t a good catch. Philip was a criminal. Not the whitewashed, white-collar type to embezzle money or take the company jet out for a spin. He was an honest-to-God bad guy, grown up like a weed between the white trash of Chicago. Strictly speaking, he shouldn’t even be allowed in the starched crowds he frequented. But one thing tipped the scale: power.

  Wealthy businessmen courted his favor. Their rich-bitch wives wanted to have sex with him. Sometimes he would oblige them. But that was Philip. He made the rules and then broke them.

  As I left the city, the walls of downtown gave way to squat shopping strips and a blue-orange sunset in the distance. The streets of Chicago were like one of those visual illusions. Close up, there was only chaos, garish and bright. The secrets lay deeper, hidden from those who didn’t know how to see them.

  Philip’s house was in one of the many pocket neighborhoods. The people here had been carefully curated by the size of their investments and the expanse of their networks.

  And then there was me. When I pulled into the long driveway, I saw a silver Lexus in the courtyard beside the garage.

  Drew.

  He was here. He met with Philip at least once a week, so it really shouldn’t be a big deal at all. He wasn’t here to see me anyway, but my heartbeat quickened as if he were.

  Drew Laramie was my brother’s lawyer. The first time I met him, he was wearing a tailored Italian suit by a designer I didn’t recognize. That alone was enough to pique my interest, sex starved as I was. I peeled back each layer in my mind: the soft wool, the thin silk, the stiff collar, and underneath? I wasn’t sure what I would find.

  My only glimpses of a man’s body came from shadowed corners of the high school football field. Then it had been smooth, tanned skin heavily doused with tattoos. Then it had hurt.

  Drew would be different.

  The first day I’d met him, he’d faltered in his greeting, his hand half lifted to shake mine. His eyes had widened so slightly I wouldn’t have noticed if I hadn’t been staring—but I was. I couldn’t take my eyes off him. I felt caught, like prey, unable to flee even as he came in for the kill.

  Except he didn’t.

  He didn’t hurt me; he didn’t hit on me. His initial surprise evened out into a bland smile and generic greeting. I suppose I could have expected it, considering Philip scared away every man who dared glance at me, but for the very first time, I felt disappointment.

  That was years ago, and since then, I had learned more about the man. I had mentally cataloged each expression of bliss—from an ice-cold beer or the early strains of a saxophone over the Bose speakers. I knew he read old books and picked apart the musicals and operas they inspired like other people did for movies. He also enjoyed the ballet and regularly made use of the box seats Philip kept in support of me. He sneaked a cigarette every couple of months, an addiction he had supposedly cracked but which still nailed him in times of stress.

  I learned so much from observing—and so little. Barely ever talking, never ever touching. That was what I did, as Lindsey had pointed out. I had no quickies in the bathroom of a dinner party, no torrid affair with a jetsetter from Paris. Me? I
watched. The ultimate voyeur, my mind was drenched with dirty thoughts while my body remained in stasis.

  I knew what it felt like to live in the outside world, which was exactly why I preferred my neat, sterile chambers. For years, I had preferred to stay frozen—untouchable. But lately the wicked thoughts about Drew had spilled over into heated feelings and busy fingers at night in my bed. And worse, I wasn’t sure how much longer I could keep them to myself.

  The changes weren’t all on my end. He looked at me longer, more intensely, and I stared back, so very tempted. Sometimes I thought that was all we’d ever do: forever watch each other, the air between us as formidable as ice, undaunted by the incipient heat of my body whenever he was near.

  I shouldered my way inside the heavy back door and dumped the contents of my duffel bag into the washing machine. The leather ballet flats came with me upstairs. One overly helpful housekeeper had ruined my lucky slippers in the wash, so these stayed with me. Where they belonged, really. My life in this opulent house was light years away from the small, shared room in my foster home, but these dirty, broken-in ballet shoes hanging on the footboard looked just the same.

  At twenty-six, I wasn’t the oldest dancer in our dance company, but it was close. My muscles ached almost constantly, which I wouldn’t have minded, except my joints were almost literally cracking under the pressure. At least, that was how I interpreted the orthopedic surgeon’s fancy diagrams.

  Pretty soon I would have to quit, whether I opened my own studio or not. But it was more than just the dancing; I needed to move out. To grow up. Philip wouldn’t take that well. He was overprotective, overbearing…and exactly what I had needed once upon a time.

  Instead of climbing the wide, winding staircase to my room, I stopped into the kitchen for a banana and a cup of OJ. Then I swung a left through the open-air living room to pass by the office. The double doors were open, which meant their top-secret business discussion had concluded. The house was secure, oppressively so, but Philip made privacy an art form.

  Even knowing I’d be welcome, I hung in the shadows of the hallway, listening to the comforting sound of low male voices. My eyes fell shut. Other people liked music or ocean noises to relax, but the rough, male timbre was my melody, the murmured ebb and flow my rhythm.

  Drew laughed, a melodic sound like rocks tumbling in a stream. I sighed in pleasure.

  Philip thought I would be scared of men, but he had spent years protecting me, building a fortress so that no one could touch me. I remembered my dad in flashes of a rage-contorted face and flying fists, more like a nightmare than reality. I had nothing to fear from men, not anymore. The only thing I feared was the coldness of isolation.

  Their voices quieted, trickling dry. After a moment, Philip called out, “Rose, you’re back.”

  A smile curved my lips. He’d known I was there. He was almost impossible to fool, which was another reason I could never do anything secret with Drew. The results, if Philip found out, would be disastrous. And Philip would definitely find out.

  I slipped into the room. Both men had their jackets off and sleeves rolled up. They both stood briefly before I sat down, an old-world gesture that fit them well. Philip was old-fashioned, but in his own way, so was Drew.

  Drew was kind, courteous, professional. A perfect gentleman everywhere but his eyes. There he wrote me dirty poetry, doing every wicked thing I craved, promising satisfaction, retribution, if only, if only…

  If only I could give in.

  He watched me now, predatory. I swallowed hard and turned away. “Hey, big brother. How was your day?”

  Philip stretched. “Busy. Tiring, but better now that you’re here. Drew and I have been working since seven.”

  I frowned. “Is everything okay?”

  Long days were customary, but Philip seemed worn down.

  “More than okay,” he said. “We’re about to score a major win. You remember that sanitation company that was giving me trouble?”

  Philip owned several aboveboard businesses. In fact, most of them were legit—they just occasionally wrote outside the lines of the law to get things done better, faster, cheaper. One of his first companies did cleaning for office buildings. Whether the economy was up or down, companies needed their trash emptied and toilets cleaned.

  I thought back. “I remember you said something about them undercutting your bids.”

  “Just barely. Enough to prove that someone was leaking information, but I didn’t know who.”

  I sneaked a glance at Drew, who stood looking out the window. “So did you figure it out?”

  “No, but in two weeks, the company’s going to get busted for their illegal and predatory hiring practices. They won’t be in any position to take on more jobs…or fulfill the contracts they stole from me.”

  I winced.

  “Sometimes it’s easier to blast through a wall than climb it,” Philip said.

  “Hmm. Tell me they can’t turn around and do the same to you.”

  “I’m airtight,” Philip said, “thanks to this guy and his constant nagging that we keep things legal.”

  Drew shrugged. “It’s in the job description.”

  “Don’t undersell yourself, man. I’ve got the best legal advisor in the city, and everyone fucking knows it.”

  I grinned. “Aww, it’s like Hallmark in here.”

  Philip sent me a droll look. “The only words of thanks he needs are the ones on his bonus check.”

  “Yeah, and it better be a good one,” Drew said lightly. “I just turned down a big raise with a sanitation company in dire need of legal counsel. Something to do with their hiring practices, I understand.”

  Philip’s gaze sharpened. “They called you?”

  Drew shrugged, strolling back to the chairs. “Met me at my condo, actually. They’re desperate, and this proves it.”

  Philip frowned for a minute, looking unwilling to let it go. He liked to be in control—he needed to be. Someone else poaching on his territory was a big offense.

  “Well,” I said, trying to put him at ease, “these guys are about to get their asses handed to them either way, right? Don’t worry about it.”

  “Bastards. I ought to…” He sighed. With visible effort, he relaxed his muscles and unclenched his fists. The lopsided smile he gave me was too reminiscent of a softer, more helpless fifteen-year-old Philip. “Okay, distract me. How was practice?”

  “Good. You know, it’s getting harder for me to keep up.”

  I’d never told him about the chronic tendonitis or the recommended surgery. He’d insist I quit dancing, even in a teaching capacity. He was so binary. Dance professionally or not at all. People were either with him or against him.

  Philip lifted his whiskey glass in dry salute. “Ah yes. You’re getting old, I remember.”

  “Almost as old as you.”

  “Never that,” he quipped, and my heart warmed to see a smile flicker on his tired face.

  He didn’t understand the allure of ballet, why I would rip up my body just to perform for a bunch of old guys in penguin suits—his words, of course. But he appreciated the purity of it, the sanctity of art. Pale pink leotards and white tights. They were a costume as much as those damn suits were, designed to keep people out. This was art. This was business. Don’t touch.

  I turned to Drew, unsurprised to find his gaze trained on me. The heat was carefully banked while we put on a show for my brother, he in a suit and me in my sweats. I couldn’t see it; I felt it—more like knowledge, like recognition. I want you. I burn for you. I come alive when you’re in the same room.

  “How are you?” I asked, schooling my tone to bored politeness.

  “Also old,” he said wryly. He cocked his head. “But good. Thanks for asking.”

  Philip’s phone rang, and he excused himself to leave the room. My throat went dry.

  There were so few times I got to be alone with Drew. I angled for them, I hoped for them, and now here it was. Just him and me.

>   Chapter Two

  The room was quiet as we regarded each other. I searched his face for some other clue that he wanted more, a breadcrumb to lead me to him. Instead of invitation, I saw sternness, intensity. The arousal might have been my own wishful thinking. He was a cipher—a handsome, finely clad cipher. Even with his shirt rumpled and sleeves rolled up, he looked dignified. And delicious.

  How long until the next time I’d get him alone? Too long.

  A certain amount of caution was a good thing, and considering certain events of my past, inevitable for me. But like opening my studio, like moving out, I had waited too long, so long that my knees were shattered and my heart was aching and my body was pulsing with need unfulfilled.

  A ballerina learned early how to live under glass, but I hadn’t known it was ice, distorting the world outside to be scary and grotesque, thickening with every season until I feared it would never thaw.

  Gathering up my courage, I approached him. Not climbing the wall, blasting through it. Every slow, even step sent needles into my strained knees. The ache only amplified the arousal he inspired in me. My whole body was a raw nerve, pulled a little tighter with every year of celibacy, stretched a little farther with every painful pirouette until I thought I would snap.

  His fair skin was lightly freckled and sprinkled with golden hairs a little darker than the tamed mop of blond on his head. I didn’t know how that would translate in the darker, more private places, but I longed to find out. This close I could see the bronze of his five o’clock shadow. The little lines around his mouth creased in a frown.

  “Is this all we’re going to do?” I asked. “Look but don’t touch?”

  One eyebrow lifted. “You tell me. Was there something more you wanted?”

  His reticence sank in my gut, a brick of disappointment in a swirling sea of indecision. It was one thing to feign disinterest in front of my brother, another to play dumb in private.

  “Right,” I said flatly. “It’s okay if your job is worth more than a few nights with me.”